Friday night was really really good. I had an amazing time at work and as soon as I got off I went to spend the nights at Neil’s. and honestly it was perfect. He treated me so well, I felt so comfortable, and he was perf. Except I couldn’t get Josh out of my mind. Literally sitting on top of Neil and I coudn’t stop feelings guilty because of josh. The real reason I went to Neil’s was to get back at Josh but honestly Josh probably doesn’t even care, I ended up having a really good time with Neil..and I kinda am starting to like him.
I’m not “seeking attention” I miss you. I freaking miss our friendship. I miss talking to you. I miss everything. So, I’m sorry I actually care about you.