I’m so lost. I have no idea what to even think of this situation. I’m praying to God he shows me why all this happened at this time. Praying that I’m not going to get hurt like before. and that I make the right decisions.
Finally, after a year constantly feeling sad, down, crying over and over I was getting better, happier, confident and independent. It took all I had. It was the most emotional draining I possibly ever went through. Of coarse there is more to the story than just feeling down for an entire year. Everything just built up and pushed me to my limits. Finally figuring everything out like my future and myself. Something I never thought would happen, happened. Yesterday shocked me more than you could ever know. It made me cry because it made me so happy but so confused. I just didn’t know how to feel. So many thoughts were going through my mind. I just hope that I don’t hurt again. Because the truth is, talking to him for the first time in months made me realize I never stopped loving him.